A Swine Flu Update

So I am stuck at home with the potential swine flu…I hate it…I am cold and achey and yesterday I couldn’t breathe, like really they tested my oxygen levels because I might have been dying couldn’t breathe…and they decided to remedy the situation by making me wear a mask

Now with some Sudafed, Nyquil and Flonase I am on the fast track to breathing normally…now I just need the chills to go away

So Sunday I didn’t hear from Maikol most of the day then he texted me to say we were going to a movie later that evening (yep say not ask) so I told him I would check my schedule and see if I could do it (please I don’t come running to his every beck and call…well maybe but I can’t let him think that…plus I was still annoyed with him from the night before)

So I end up going (as if this surprised anyone) and when I walk in he smiles at me and I kind of look away and he walks towards me and I don’t attempt to hug or kiss him…I don’t get what’s up with me…I kept thinking maybe this is how I will make my decision on everything, by seeing him tonight and instead I’m acting like this is the first time I’ve met him. And the conversation is awkward…like we’re never awkward and I can’t tell if it’s him or me…it seems like its him but I don’t know why

Jose shows up gives me a hug and kisses me on the cheek and Maikol is watching intently….and things become semi-normal and we talk about the night before and Maikol mentions that Jose didn’t get home until 7am and wasn’t I with him, and asks what time I got home, I said 5am and he seems relieved…I am not sure what he’s thinking…like did he think I tried to hook up with Jose? And if he was so concerned why didn’t he drive me back? Why did he disappear? WTF is his deal?

He also asked about me meeting up with Tim and Justin and I get the distinct feeling that he was jealous and semi-mad at me…like he doesn’t like my guy friends…not that I approve of some of his girl friends…like I know he went with Ana to a thing at El Buen Amigo earlier in the afternoon but what can I say about it? I mean maybe he just wants to connect with people who have similar interests but it bothers me nonetheless

So we go into the movie (Paranormal Activity) and its awful…like such a bad idea for me to see considering I am home alone so often…so he’s definitely in my personal space like arm taking over my arm rest and brushing against me/resting in the crook of my side…same with his leg…like if there wasn’t an arm rest between us we’d probably be semi-intertwined…so the movie is not to scary in the beginning but by the end the fear of the unknown is out of control

Jose fell asleep during it…which makes me think he didn’t get home at 7 and sleep all day like he said...

So we leave the theatre and stand in the lobby talking for a bit more, Maikol seems to be acting normal again and he definitely is standing in between me and Jose which I think is interesting…we talk about my paper I’m presenting in San Fran in a few weeks and Jose was all oh wow I didn’t know about that and Maikol is all well I thought it was interesting, you told me about it awhile ago…and I can’t help but to catch a weird vibe…

So we walk into the parking lot and Jose points out his car and gives me a kiss on the cheek and hug again and goes to walk away to which Maikol responds to pulling me in and giving me a kiss and I pull away and say hey we’re parked near each other so we’re going the same way…and he says oh that’s ok I just wanted to
And we stop at his car and he continues to talk to me about Jose and keeps touching me while talking…like its definitely a different Maikol than normal

He says he will see me soon and I hop into my car and we leave