Halloween part 2

So last night was Halloween and I celebrated it with a few friends and a few hundred strangers…I got all gussied up as a cowgirl which was a hit, mostly because my tied up shirt accentuated my chest (insert evil laugh) and my drawn on freckles and pigtails kept it semi-wholesome…Trish summed it up as sexy-alluring cuteness which I think is a decent description. Maybe I should have toned it down a bit because it led to quite an awkward moment for me…

The night started out pretty wholesome…hanging out at Stillwater with the bro-ham and his gf (who appropriately came dressed as a gold digger) and Chris, Eric and a surprising cameo from fellow classmate and all around elusive guy David (seriously can’t figure him out, he says he just wanted to come and see another side of us). So we had some drinks and danced…mostly the guys just held up the wall. New Mike texted me wishing me a Happy Halloween, which was really sweet…

Maikol and his crew were late as always…I am pretty sure that the more Latinos you add to a group the later they are…it’s definitely the case with this group…the entire crew of enginerds came as a prison chain gang and brought a blow up doll for Pepe’s birthday which they were calling their escort…which is really ridiculous…so they come and Maikol doesn’t even come over to me which annoys me…and this weirdness continues throughout the night…like I just don’t get what his deal was, he was stand-offish and aloof and I don’t know…it was just weird. He did meet my brother though and then seemed anxious about whether or not he made a good first impression and if not over time they could become friends…like I just don’t get it. Then he disappears to take a group of people to Chippewa and doesn’t say anything to me, so I end up leaving with Pepe.

We leave Stillwater and head to the Chip Strip which the cops already had closed down because it was sooo packed but we went in anyway…my brother left and so did Chris, Eric and David so it was just me and the boys…so we head to Bottoms Up and I am seriously about to wet my pants so I run to the bathroom and I run into Justin Ross…so we end up hanging out and he’s with Tim and Trish and Trish’s new pseudo-guy Terry so it’s all good times. So we’re all dancing and drinking and whatever and it is so crowded I hate it…and I’m starting to get tired so I am really hating it. I’m dancing with Tim most of the night and he’s so excited to be back in Buffalo and thinks we should hang out soon and I miss Tim so I say of course…he’s seriously like one of the nicest guys around. So he leaves because well he’s sane and wants to beat the crowd and I am stuck because I didn’t drive…I start dancing with Ricardo and Aragon and whomever when Ricardo grabs me and tells me to come with him. He’s grabbing my hand really hard and pulling me like turns out he’s a lot stronger than I realized. He’s trying to pull me onto the raised dance floor and I am pulling back and he says we need to go in the back where no one can see us…and I am like freaking out because he’s being really aggressive and no one is paying attention so I pull away and tell him I need to go to the bathroom and run off. When I come back out I can’t find anyone so I keep pushing my way through the crowd until I find Pepe…and he tells me that they’re gone…Maikol has taken Ricardo and a few people home and I can’t help but wonder if he saw Ricardo and decided to nip the situation or if Maikol was just being weird again…I text Maikol to ask about getting together tomorrow…and as of 2pm Sunday still no answer…so I guess it’s whatever

We all leave shortly after and when Pepe drops me off at my car, he holds my hand and thanks me for coming out for his birthday and how glad he is that I have joined their group and hang out and to make sure that I call him when I get home so he knows I made it home safe.

When I get home I call and it goes to voicemail so I hang up and he calls me right back to say he’s glad I made it home safe and that he’ll be sure to see me this week for lunch and I can’t help but think why can’t Maikol be more like that…like am I just being selfish? Like maybe you can’t have it all maybe I’m being dramatic…or maybe I’m just not sure about him anymore…I just feel like maybe I wanted something so badly I tried to force it when really it might not be for me…who knows I may change my mind in an hour or two haha

I just know I want someone who does care enough to have me call him when I get home and who sticks around to make sure I'm okay and is really sweet and cares about my life in general...I don't know I feel like part of my current unhappiness is just because he didn't answer me...I get really antsy about that stuff...or maybe him not answering is just highlighting something I am normally inclined to ignore? Who knows? I just know I need to figure things out and soon...

Bottomline: We stayed out waaaaaaaaaaaay too late…damn daylight savings time…I got home at the equivalent of like 5:30am…I am way too old for this…