NaNoWriMo?

So my cousin is a writer and has recently been facebooking about whether to NanoWriMo or not...I was obviously like WTF and then I saw it on Meggo's blog and clicked the link...writing a 50,000 word novel in one month...can anyone do that? I thinnk to myself maybe I could try...I think I'd end up writing a not-so-fictional story about something way to close to home...I think my creative juices have kind of died...or at least taken a back seat to navigating the corporate world.

I was thinking that while I may not be able to write 50,000 words I could update my blog everyday for a month...that's what I will aim for anyway...

So here we are unofficial blog month...10/10-11/10

I will update the inner-workings of my life for 30 days as objectively as possible and see what happens...maybe I will be in a completely different place, in one of those epiphanies that people hope for and lifetime movies are all about...

I'll start with this weekend...

Friday--Bachelorette dinner with some of the girls from work...I realized what giant assholes they really are...and slutty assholes at that...my boss recommended that I not attend the party because two of the women were recently fired for insurance fraud...I went anyway because it felt like peer pressure, plus I really don't like when people tell me what to do...makes me do the opposite obviously...bottomline I really don't like hanging out with dumb girls...and I realized that some people keep their jobs because they're hookers, all they talked about was ll the guys they hooked up with...ewww whores

Afterward I went home changed and went to Adam's house for a party...when I arrived Adam picked on me because I always tell him I am just "stopping through" so I actually stayed this time...until the end...had a semi-awkward moment with Tim where he felt the need to grab my face and stare at me and pull me in close...he was drunk so I'll dismiss it but if I was being objective I would say it was pretty flirtatious...Adam and I joked around a lot and he made me his date during Kings cup which of course doesn't really mean anything but maybe it does...I was the last to leave, he thought I was staying over and when I said I wasn't because I don't sleep on couches he made a comment about his bed...when I looked shocked he backtracked that his dog usually tried to steal half of it...then he walked me to the door and we had a long conversation at the door. He told me he missed me and was glad I was coming back around because it had been too long...he talked about us needing to see each other more and we talked about going to see the Trans-Siberian Orchestra in December...and we hugged like 3 times...I don't know what to say about it...I later dreamt about him, we were in a coffee shop and he kissed me and I kissed him and we went upstairs and kissed under a bed...which is weird I think and then I ran up another flight and I yelled at someone for being racist...

Saturday--B.KURTZ got MARRIED!! It was such a beautiful wedding...I teared up like 3-5 times during the ceremony and of course during their first dance, father-daughter and mother-son...I also came to the realization that I want that one day...the love, wedding, happiness, marriage deal....as much as I pretend I don't...I only put up a good front...Jill teared up too, which made me happy because she usually acts like a tough ass too...we're both secretly hopeless romantics...also had a super good time with Eric, he danced and goofed around and spun me on the dance floor...and even though he's slightly rhythmically challenged it was just really nice that he went along with everything...too bad he's gay...haha...most guys will not look foolish just to make someone else happy...so I really value that

Sunday--Slept in, hung around the house and just contemplated everything...do I like Adam? Why does Cisco keep calling me? We had a really awkward pseudo-date and he put his head on my shoulder/top of my boob when we hugged at the end of the night...I wasn't down with it at all...he texted me as well and wants me to "holla at him" I really hate when guys talk to me like we're bros...I'm trying really hard to re-establish that I am a lady and should be treated as such...I've been a bro for too long...and no ones wants to date bros right?