So tonight I went out with my fav boys Chris and Eric and we went to Empire and then to the Steer for dinner...Mike joined us...so Mike semi-flirts with me and we joke around and then decide to go out to Fugazi because Derek is working....on the ride over Mike tells me that he needs me to know that we cannot have a relationship because he isn't the relationship type (this is out of the blue mind you)...so he continues to say that he thought this is what I wanted and he just can't do it because of everything that happened with his father...so I'm like well I don't know if you know but I don't generally date...it just never happens and he's like well I like you and you're really nice but I just can't...(ummm, pretty sure you don't have to explain it to me or convince me...I didn't even bring it up)...he proceeds to ask me if things are really done with a previous interest...I tell him they are, he asks if I am really sure that there is nothing, which makes me wonder why he is so concerned...it was above and beyond the normal general interest, like he asked three separate times if it was really over...at some point in the night he told me that he knew in Spring semester that I wanted a relationship...I looked back through my bloggery and I was totally in like with Chad at that point...so I'm wondering who really wanted this relationship in Spring semester...
So we head out to Fugazi and Mike is hanging on to me, and flirting and when I bend over to order my drink he's touching the small of my back and being generally flirty and inappropriate...at one point I am walking to the bathroom and he cups my bottom...like WTF...so he's in my space and flirting/joking around, asking my bra size and when I show Chris my bra he totally goes to touch the lacy part of it...which is a general violation but is also him making the move, he also jokes that he hasn't ruled out us drunkenly making out...like all this stuff which I know I am forgetting and I'm all like whatever because really what can I say? or do? So I need to tip Derek so I go looking to each of the boys to throw in...I grab Mike's jean pockets to get his wallet and he flips on me saying I know that he cannot get into a relationship and what am I doing...and I was like seriously dude? Like I'm just grabbing for your wallet and he immediately changes and is like oh ok it's in the right pocket...as if I am going to take his pants off in the middle of the bar....I mean who am I? Snookie?
So we leave and I am grabbing Chris' arm and Mike comes over and grabs my other arm to walk me to the car...completely unnecessary right?
So we head to Chippewa which is uber lame so we leave and head back to Allen...Chris and Eric leave and Mike asks me what I want to do...we end up heading back home and he is sitting in silence pondering the night...meanwhile I'm thinking what a crazy person...so we get to his driveway and its like awkward where he's looking at me and is generally being kind of weird and asks me about an awkward smile on my face (to which I reply there is none)...then proceeds to tell me that we should go shopping tomorrow so I can tell him what clothes he would look best in...then says he doesn't know what to say and he's just going to get out of the car now...
So I watch him walk to his apartment and can't help but think about how insane our conversation/situation has been this evening....I don't know where the whole relationship thing came from, I've never asked him or even really hinted...the dad thing is messed up...his dad has a secret family and illegitimate child roaming around and it has really done a number on Mike...he found this all out semi-recently...or just started talking about it...but to think that you would have feelings for someone and try to convince yourself it was not a good idea for whatever reason...well it's just really sad...unless I am reading this completely wrong I think that's what is generally going on here...I don't know if he's afraid he's like his father and will hurt someone or that he's like his mother and will end up getting hurt...it's just really unfortunate because we really would make a good couple....not that I'm pushing it or anything...
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