Bienvenido a Miami!

So I realized I haven't updated in quite sometime...so much for my blog a day

So since I last updated I have been to Albany for a conference, hung out with my favorite second family, bought some wonderful cupcakes, and had the world's longest rainy drive back to Buffalo...hopped a plane, traveled from 4am Sunday until 11pm Sunday to Miami and arrived for conference number 2...realized they overcharged me for conference number one, wandered around Miami, had breakfast with Michelle, Kristen came, conferenced and continued to wander around Miami and here we are

The highlights:

Conference booths have a lot of fun giveaways...like no joke...I got a porcelain lip gloss holder from Exxon Mobil....like seriously?

Got a Job Offer from a company in Cleveland all because I was a cute networker

Had the most delicious Cheesecake Turtle Gelato ever!

Realized Miami is a racket! 18% gratuity on absolutely everything...I'm pretty sure handing me my order of fries doesn't constitute a tip...but I get it your town runs on tourism....but still

Met a cute guy, Chris....from the job in Cleveland...no ring...exchanged cards...we'll see

Some photos from the Miami trip...

 The view outside my window....I heart Loew's

 My cute little room...I want to live here

 The conference...seriously crazy...

My and Kristen's drinks from OH Mexico!

Random Update

So I think I am starting to fall of the wagon with this daily updating...or I'm getting senile cause I could have sworn that I updated more than this...

Went on a super cool tour of one of our buildings the other day...it's a new engineering building we're the GCs on...so we develop this tour for the SWE and there are guys there which I thought was weird but apparently it's not that strange at all according to Tyra

So I met this guy from ASME named Joe and we kinda hit it off...he's going to help out with a program I run...he also stuck to me during the tour and afterward like it was his job...he also came out into the cold to help me carry things in and then wouldn't really let me carry anything...no ring...I checked and if my calculations are right based on linkedin...he's about 6 years older than I am...I'm going to say these are both plusses

Also had our first week at volleyball...its kinda fun although if you would have asked me in high school if I would be friends with these people I would probably say no...we're just a random mix...but it seems to work...Danny is funny...he keeps telling me that I'm so smart and he's not (which isn't true...to be honest he was more focused on being cool in high school and cool kids never do homework apparently) he also kept apologizing to me for being a jerk in high school (again I blame the coolness)...it was never anything major...and now he's commenting on facebook and telling me that he remembers kissing me in high school (which I may have already mentioned but it bears repeating because it was really amazing for the high school version of me)...we'll see what's up with that

Last night I went to a mixer (for lack of a better word)...it was about success in the city and diversity...it was kind of okay...I chatted with a few people and realized I am getting better at small talking everyday plus there were cute successful guys there which is always a plus...made some connections...

Last day of work before my Albany/Miami extravaganza!!! I am super excited....rumor is this weekend will consist of the Norlunds, a cornmaze and ice cream cake....YAY!

I really want to update....

But life won't let me...

Things are busy....volleyball last night...lost...but fun times regardless....Danny brought up the time we kissed in high school during truth or dare...randomness...

Week is ridiculously busy....can't wait to head to Albany...Meg left me a teaser of a cornmaze....hopefully we'll get to hang out a bit

Oh and I'm going to see the Trans  Siberian Orchestra with Adam and Tim...should be fun

Sweetest Day...p.s. I'm slightly drunk

So tonight I went out with my fav boys Chris and Eric and we went to Empire and then to the Steer for dinner...Mike joined us...so Mike semi-flirts with me and we joke around and then decide to go out to Fugazi because Derek is working....on the ride over Mike tells me that he needs me to know that we cannot have a relationship because he isn't the relationship type (this is out of the blue mind you)...so he continues to say that he thought this is what I wanted and he just can't do it because of everything that happened with his father...so I'm like well I don't know if you know but I don't generally date...it just never happens and he's like well I like you and you're really nice but I just can't...(ummm, pretty sure you don't have to explain it to me or convince me...I didn't even bring it up)...he proceeds to ask me if things are really done with a previous interest...I tell him they are, he asks if I am really sure that there is nothing, which makes me wonder why he is so concerned...it was above and beyond the normal general interest, like he asked three separate times if it was really over...at some point in the night he told me that he knew in Spring semester that I wanted a relationship...I looked back through my bloggery and I was totally in like with Chad at that point...so I'm wondering who really wanted this relationship in Spring semester...


So we head out to Fugazi and Mike is hanging on to me, and flirting and when I bend over to order my drink he's touching the small of my back and being generally flirty and inappropriate...at one point I am walking to the bathroom and he cups my bottom...like WTF...so he's in my space and flirting/joking around, asking my bra size and when I show Chris my bra he totally goes to touch the lacy part of it...which is a general violation but is also him making the move, he also jokes that he hasn't ruled out us drunkenly making out...like all this stuff which I know I am forgetting and I'm all like whatever because really what can I say? or do? So I need to tip Derek so I go looking to each of the boys to throw in...I grab Mike's jean pockets to get his wallet and he flips on me saying I know that he cannot get into a relationship and what am I doing...and I was like seriously dude? Like I'm just grabbing for your wallet and he immediately changes and is like oh ok it's in the right pocket...as if I am going to take his pants off in the middle of the bar....I mean who am I? Snookie?

So we leave and I am grabbing Chris' arm and Mike comes over and grabs my other arm to walk me to the car...completely unnecessary right?

So we head to Chippewa which is uber lame so we leave and head back to Allen...Chris and Eric leave and Mike asks me what I want to do...we end up heading back home and he is sitting in silence pondering the night...meanwhile I'm thinking what a crazy person...so we get to his driveway and its like awkward where he's looking at me and is generally being kind of weird and asks me about an awkward smile on my face (to which I reply there is none)...then proceeds to tell me that we should go shopping tomorrow so I can tell him what clothes he would look best in...then says he doesn't know what to say and he's just going to get out of the car now...

So I watch him walk to his apartment and can't help but think about how insane our conversation/situation has been this evening....I don't know where the whole relationship thing came from, I've never asked him or even really hinted...the dad thing is messed up...his dad has a secret family and illegitimate child roaming around and it has really done a number on Mike...he found this all out semi-recently...or just started talking about it...but to think that you would have feelings for someone and try to convince yourself it was not a good idea for whatever reason...well it's just really sad...unless I am reading this completely wrong I think that's what is generally going on here...I don't know if he's afraid he's like his father and will hurt someone or that he's like his mother and will end up getting hurt...it's just really unfortunate because we really would make a good couple....not that I'm pushing it or anything...

Introducing my first pseudo-niece: Mia (My-a in case you were wondering)

There she is folks....Mia Alora Servos...and I helped bring her into this world....it's pretty amazing actually...she may have even led to me re-thinking having children...it's kind of gross and it messes with your insides but it is the only everyday miracle we have left...to think that she grew inside of someone and one day she'll be a 5'6 beautiful scientist is mind boggling...yes I am going to make her love math and science, it is the future :)

It was pretty stressful though and it seems kind of painful...but I guess it's like anything, you have to go through a little pain and risk for something really great, right? Maybe Aunt Meg and Aunt Mel will have some children to spoil....no guarantees but we'll see.

Right now she is in the NICU because she came out with a fever and a little sickness....but everyone thinks she'll make a full recovery. Tania's dad got so upset over it he passed out in the NICU and had to be taken downstairs to the ER...he said it was more embarrassing than anything...but still it was crazy...he just said wow it's warm in here and the next thing you know he was taking out a table on laying on the ground.

So all in all it was an eventful day...

Day 4: Could this be a trend?

Ridiculously busy day at work...we made the paper for our press conference!! Bonus :)

The exec that semi-thinks I'm dumb came over to tell me I did a great job...Double bonus!

Hung out with the woman from the state...turns out she's super nice and super normal and thinks that what I'm doing is important and also understand the pitfalls...really nice

Went out with Cisco tonight...downtown coffee shop...

He was in rare form...like flirty random banter and ridiculousness...and he was on time, let me talk, and we found out we had more in common than we thought...including a love for prehistoric animals which is SUPER nerdy...he starts his job in DC in November...15th to be exact...so he has to find a place asap...he told me he felt like I stiffed him on Saturday, I told him I had a wedding and he was on crack...so we're going out this weekend...movie and going downtown...we'll see how this goes...

He keeps telling me that he isn't ready to settle down yet but then he asks me where I want to live and what I want to do and long term questions....I can't tell if he's saying the not settle because he's not ready to settle or because he is wondering what I'm think or he's scared...it's weird...I know people are like well guys say what they mean...I know that's not the case with him at all...we already talked about me coming to visit and going along the national mall and seeing the sites...we joked about sleeping together (non-sexual) and I told him I get to be the little spoon, he told me he'd try to remember to wear underwear Hahah

What's odd is fr the first time in a long time, he didn't hug me goodbye....weird

Habeus Corpus

So I've been thinking about this....is my life filled with lawyers? Does this mean something?

Cisco--lawyer

Dan--lawyer

Mark--lawyer


I always thought it was engineers but who knows....


This is just random...apparently making a promise to blog daily is about quantity...not quality

Day 3: You're serious right?

So today's press conference went amazingly well...didn't have to speak live, but I did answer a few questions for a segment of the Making it Happen show...I'll have to learn how to post a video from Meggo so that you can all see me awkwardly stare at the camera

On a random note: Apparently when you decide to put yourself out there but you don't know what you're looking for...well sometimes things come from nowhere

So Mark...whom I haven't seen since the APA conference in NOLA...tonight he texts me and says "he still cares very much about me and can't wait to see me when he comes home"

Back story: Mark and I have known each other for about 9 or 10 years...we worked at Bob Evans together, he always tried to talk to me but I was wrapped up in the whole Richie deal...we kissed once in the cooler and well it was pretty hot...he went away to school, I quit working there and I hadn't seen him in years until facebook (Thanks Mark Zuckerberg)...we chatted a bit, exchanged numbers, around 2008 we talked about trying the whole dating thing...that Christmas break he told me he didn't think it would work because of distance (and because he had met a local girl) they dated and married, we kept talking as friends...I met up with him in NOLA and we reminisced, he told me things weren't working with his wife, I told him he should work on it...4 months later...He divorced his wife...or that's what facebook told me anyway...he lives in Alabama and just passed the bar...he texted me about a month back saying that my existence was a way to remind him that there were extraordinary things in the world and that someone could really be blessed by the existence of a person...I finally texted him back tonight to thank him...then the "cares about me" text happened

Now that you're caught up...I can't help but wonder about this idea...but I wonder about the distance and if we're different or if I'm jumping ahead of myself...and what if he wanted me to move to Alabama? First off, eww humidity...but would I?

I'm doing really well for myself here, but does that really matter? Especially if I'm successful but alone? Today Gene (my fav exec) took me to lunch for a press conference well done and we talked about balance...and he said "how can you be happy if you're successful but you're getting a divorce or have no social time?" or something to that effect...and I can't help but wonder if our talk wasn't well timed in some divine way...

I'll keep ya posted friends!

Day 2--Unsettled

So today a few random things happened:

1) Cisco got a job...in DC...and I can't tell how I feel about it...I'm happy for him but I guess I didn't really think he'd leave...he's going to be a lobbyist for Native Affairs...which is cool, it's what he wants to do....so why am I feeling unsettled?

We are supposed to hang out this week...we'll see

2) Tomorrow is the press conference of my life...it's where the greater world finds out about my architecture program that I wrote...and I might have to give the announcement myself....me making the announcement alongside the mayor, superintendent, dean of schools, and random other guest stars...which terrifies me...and also makes me really excited...

3)Chatted with Adam today...we're going to have a dinner party at his house...which is exciting...he also mentioned going to hang out with Justin in Baltimore and his friend Ana...which again makes me feel unsettled...I'm sensing a theme going on here...

NaNoWriMo?

So my cousin is a writer and has recently been facebooking about whether to NanoWriMo or not...I was obviously like WTF and then I saw it on Meggo's blog and clicked the link...writing a 50,000 word novel in one month...can anyone do that? I thinnk to myself maybe I could try...I think I'd end up writing a not-so-fictional story about something way to close to home...I think my creative juices have kind of died...or at least taken a back seat to navigating the corporate world.

I was thinking that while I may not be able to write 50,000 words I could update my blog everyday for a month...that's what I will aim for anyway...

So here we are unofficial blog month...10/10-11/10

I will update the inner-workings of my life for 30 days as objectively as possible and see what happens...maybe I will be in a completely different place, in one of those epiphanies that people hope for and lifetime movies are all about...

I'll start with this weekend...

Friday--Bachelorette dinner with some of the girls from work...I realized what giant assholes they really are...and slutty assholes at that...my boss recommended that I not attend the party because two of the women were recently fired for insurance fraud...I went anyway because it felt like peer pressure, plus I really don't like when people tell me what to do...makes me do the opposite obviously...bottomline I really don't like hanging out with dumb girls...and I realized that some people keep their jobs because they're hookers, all they talked about was ll the guys they hooked up with...ewww whores

Afterward I went home changed and went to Adam's house for a party...when I arrived Adam picked on me because I always tell him I am just "stopping through" so I actually stayed this time...until the end...had a semi-awkward moment with Tim where he felt the need to grab my face and stare at me and pull me in close...he was drunk so I'll dismiss it but if I was being objective I would say it was pretty flirtatious...Adam and I joked around a lot and he made me his date during Kings cup which of course doesn't really mean anything but maybe it does...I was the last to leave, he thought I was staying over and when I said I wasn't because I don't sleep on couches he made a comment about his bed...when I looked shocked he backtracked that his dog usually tried to steal half of it...then he walked me to the door and we had a long conversation at the door. He told me he missed me and was glad I was coming back around because it had been too long...he talked about us needing to see each other more and we talked about going to see the Trans-Siberian Orchestra in December...and we hugged like 3 times...I don't know what to say about it...I later dreamt about him, we were in a coffee shop and he kissed me and I kissed him and we went upstairs and kissed under a bed...which is weird I think and then I ran up another flight and I yelled at someone for being racist...

Saturday--B.KURTZ got MARRIED!! It was such a beautiful wedding...I teared up like 3-5 times during the ceremony and of course during their first dance, father-daughter and mother-son...I also came to the realization that I want that one day...the love, wedding, happiness, marriage deal....as much as I pretend I don't...I only put up a good front...Jill teared up too, which made me happy because she usually acts like a tough ass too...we're both secretly hopeless romantics...also had a super good time with Eric, he danced and goofed around and spun me on the dance floor...and even though he's slightly rhythmically challenged it was just really nice that he went along with everything...too bad he's gay...haha...most guys will not look foolish just to make someone else happy...so I really value that

Sunday--Slept in, hung around the house and just contemplated everything...do I like Adam? Why does Cisco keep calling me? We had a really awkward pseudo-date and he put his head on my shoulder/top of my boob when we hugged at the end of the night...I wasn't down with it at all...he texted me as well and wants me to "holla at him" I really hate when guys talk to me like we're bros...I'm trying really hard to re-establish that I am a lady and should be treated as such...I've been a bro for too long...and no ones wants to date bros right?