It's my party and I'll cry if I want to...

So last night was my birthday party...the last birthday of my student career, the last birthday I can get completely ridiculous on and blame it on school, once you're out of school and you get super drunk people think you have a problem and I really don't want to go to Betty Ford ya know?

So the weekend started out with some potential...I had to go through a very painful family dinner, my mother has way too many mood swings and instead of just saying she can't/doesn't want to do something she huffs around and makes everyone uncomfortable...it's pretty bullshitty if you ask me...like she can't put on a phony face and smile for one day, like it's my birthday for cripe's sakes...and instead she's slamming drawers and cabinets in the kitchen instead of just going out to eat like I wanted

The next day was my party...80s theme so I ordered slap bracelets and shutter shades, bought nerds, fun dip, bubblicious and now and laters...grabbed some 80s movies to play in the background (I can totally relate to Molly Ringwald in 16 candles in this instance...except without the Jake Ryan love interest) and created an 80s itunes mix

So I get ready to leave my house to pick up Jenn because we're going to get ready together and decorate and just have fun...and she bails because she says she's nto feeling well...but this is 10 minutes before I leave to get her...she says she's going to rally and then come over....which never happens but I do get a text saying she owes me dinner next week...

So then I am alone at the loft prepping and watching Girls Just Want To Have Fun (SJP has some serious caterpillar eyebrows in the 80s yeesh)and Chad texts me to say the chances of him even showing up are looking pretty slim...I ask why and he says because he has homework and he hasn't done it (now mind you he went out Friday night to go curling with his buddies in Canada and apparently that was fine...like my birthday is one day a year...seriously? So he promises to try to stop for a drink or two...which also doesn't happen...I don't even get the "sorry text"
To make matters worse, everyone is asking where my new love interest is...I think it's the publicity that makes me feel so upset...

Drew doesn't show up either, although he sent me the text this morning saying he was a bad friend and he owed me dinner and fun on Allen. \

Cisco (aka 5 hour coffee guy) also doesn't show up...he sends the text this morning that he was so sick last night from whatever he had for dinner, but can he see me this week for coffee because he's in town until the 8th

So yes some people did show up, but it's like the people I really wanted to come did not...I had fun...kind of...a few of my friends KG, B, and Chris were really low key adn sat at the table and looked mopey. When I said something they were like we're really tired we shouldn't even be out...like WTF

Liz, Michelle and Lia were entertaining though...I missed them...since the whole Sara hates me and wants me dead kind of deal I haven't really seen them...however I will see Sara later this month at Michelle's bridal shower, which should be good (or awful...we'll see)

So all in all, this birthday has been pretty lame...I'm glad it's over

I dont carry things I dont hold doors I don't have independent thought...as if I assumed all men had good intentions...as if!

So being the only girl in a job sometimes seems fun...other times it is a damn pain in the ass...I get left in the office because they think I can't handle peeing in a porta-john...I do more paperwork than I think I should....and everyone feels the need to give me weird words of wisdom.

Today during a meeting...I was given these nuggets of wisdom

"Don't assume that just because one of the construction guys asks you for drinks after work that his intentions are good"

"You have the pick of the litter"

I don't even know what to say to these sorts of things...like I'm not sure if they think I'm some sort of wholesome mindless person or if they really think of women in the traditional role and its weird for them

Like they're all pretty old school, like they all hold doors for me, don't swear (or try not to), I don't carry heavy things...like its just weird...part of me likes the special attention until they think I am an a wilting violet...I'm a steel magnolia damnit!

In other news, Chad and I went out for dinner yesterday and it was super cute...the dinner was no big deal we just grabbed pizza but it was like the way he went about it...he brought up being hungry on our fieldtrip but then left it alone...we had a trip for class to the power vista...seriously weird and unrelated to class but whatever...he picked me up for the fieldtrip and I navigated...so afterwards we're driving back and we have no idea where we are going and he was like well whatever happens, we're in this together and it was his tone that made me think he meant more.

So on the way back we're talking and talking about everything and I end up telling him all this crazy stuff and I was like OMG I probably shouldn't have told you all that and he says that I'm safe with him, that he'll keep all of my secrets...and again it's his tone...so he picks a place for dinner (which I really like, I generally don't care where I grab food but I hate when people are indecisive about it) so we walk in and order and they ask separate or together and he says put it all on my card and I look and give the obligatory "really face" and he's like Don't worry I've got it...so I say are you sure...and he's like yes of course you can grab it next time if you want (which of course I really don't haha)

So while they call our order and he jumps up to grab it and brings both orders back...and I stare a my pizza and say i wish I had a fork and he's liek oh I'll grab you one...like idk it was cute...maybe it's nothing... maybe you think its no big deal...or maybe you think its lame we went to some pizza shop near school but I think its really cute...and we just talked and joked and he drove me back to school. We kind of had a moment before I got out of the car but I can't be sure...
He did offer to drive me to the front door of Hayes so i wouldn't have to walk in the snow which was super adorable

Idk what to say...I just have a really good time with him, its just really easy, like I don't have to freak out about things...I mean I do freak out sometimes but we're always okay in the end...I really hope it works

The old new post

So well here we are again….things were going really well with Chad and then all of a sudden nothing…Let’s catch you up…

Chad and I have been together like peas and carrots…and things were going really well, we were going out on the weekends I’ve met some of his friends, he’s met some of mine…then he told me he loved me…

All of a sudden things got weird…he wasn’t sitting with me in class, he was being evasive, suddenly couldn’t go out…and then it was weird dudes I hadn’t talked to in forever had started coming out of the woodwork…first there was Ira saying he was coming to my birthday and that he wanted to hang out…then Cisco and Dan said they were coming to my birthday party like after being MIA for months…then the ever confusing Doug shows up in the parking lot at school and wants to ride to Boston with me…then there was Tyler, Chad’s friend taking Chad’s seat in class and chatting it up with me and joking and being close and weird…it was very out of character. And this coupled with the Chad acting weird like I didn’t know what to do…but sit there and witness it all.

So we left with him being mopey and telling me he had no Valentine…so flash forward to this weekend…I’m celebrating Valentines with my fav girls: Meg, Mel and Aryn…so we talk it over and think I should ask Chad to be my valentine…so it goes down like this (via text):

Me: Will you be my valentine?

Chad: Ur outta town

Me: Well the responsibilities are limited, considering I’m 500 miles away but you can always buy me a present when I get back hahah

Chad: Not to mention I was number 4 on ur list. What am I last resort?

Me: You’re totally not the last resort! Facebook picked my valentines not me

Chad: Well I don’t believe it

Me: Well it’s true…try the app…besides who else would I ask?



So I don’t get it…who gets that upset over a will you be my valentine text message? Like seriously!? And who cares if you’re number four on a facebook app? Like I don’t get it…and he hasn’t responded to me all day..or really since about 12:30 last night…I don’t get it…I really really don’t get it…like did he want to be my Valentine ..if he did why didn’t he ask? Why’d he like flip out on me instead about being a last resort? And why did he think he was my last resort? Like I don’t get it….I’m just really really confused…I have no idea what to do…This is one time I’m really at a loss…

Wow...

So I have to tell you faithful bloggers a super hot mess of a story…so my friend we’ll call her KG…is totally in a crazy situation…

So basically she is talking to this slightly older man who is super hot and super rich (like public figure/owns sports teams but somehow lives in a small town) we’ll call him Daddy Warbucks

Well so KG and DW are in the beginning stages…like we all met at a bar one night through a mutual friend and KG was making jokes about Breakfast at Tiffanys…so like a week later he facebooks her and is all “Hey Holly GoLightly…it was really great to meet you last week” first off last names were never given so how did he find her? Facebook stalker maybe?

So she responds with a “oh hey…let me know next time you’re around” like super casual…so he friends her on facebook…and she begins planning for her new jetsetting life of black cards and box seats…

Meanwhile the friend (Rory) who introduced everyone….apparently she is like madly in love with him…and totally has been/was hooking up with him and they even lived together! Like WTF!! But she swears up and down that they were only friends until KG gets in the mix…then she’s facebook chatting me about how much she hates that she loves him and why does he string her along and pull her back in everytime she tries to walk away and she wants to murder him, like graphically wants to murder him…not in the “im so mad I could kill him way” but in the “I might take his bunny and boil it ala Glenn Close and then ruin his public career/private life” and I am frantically texting KG to let her know of this crazy predicament…and she is freaking out, especially when I bring up the Glenn Close analogy…

So KG and Rory bump into each other in the library at school and it was AWKWARD!!! Like KG tries to say hello and pretend that Rory isn’t completely crazy and it is totally not working…Rory gets super loud and freaks out and KG peaces out because well who can tango with a crazy woman?

Nothing has happened between Daddy Warbucks and KG other than some harmless facebooking…but KG also doesn’t care if Rory is a little crazy about the situation because she feels that Rory should have been honest about their pseudo-relationship and called dibs on him or something…

And I am in the middle of all of this….because I am friends with both of them….seriously out of control

But makes the work day fly by….

The Saga Continues

So I have an update at home that I will post later but these will seem really out of sync because the prior update explains more back story on this post…but when you work on 3 computers a day I guess you have to resign to the fact that you’ll leave something somewhere.

So continuing the saga…it appears that things with Chad and I are fine…he says he was only kidding although I find it hard to believe that he was kidding and I think it was more that he was drinking and got too honest and random and now to save face he falls back on the kidding line (I gave him the opening though by asking if he was kidding and I just misunderstood, although in my gut I know he was being honest)

However yesterday did not start out so great…he skipped our meeting with our Chair which really annoyed me and then when I walked into class he not only didn’t sit next to me but he sat on the opposite side of the room…it was really obvious and annoying and at that moment I decided I was going to be frosty and just ignore him because obviously he was being a big baby for nothing. So I was annoyed all class and texted Kelly regarding the situation and said I am really at a loss and she said something really smart (which she often does)…she said that it wasn’t a loss, it was only a lull….lulls suck let me tell you…I need to always win and always have the upper hand when it comes to things like this so clearly I was at a loss…
However, he went out of his way after class to force me to talk to him, and jump in our meeting and answer questions and give feedback when I said things that are pretty rhetorical but I guess he was making up for it. Then once there was news that a gunman might kill everyone in the library at school we started texting and chatting and joking like everything was normal…guess it takes a bit of craziness?

I have no idea…I wish I didn’t suck so much at understanding the male species.
So I talked to Kordrupel last night and told him my saga and he goes along with Drew and Rob who both say there was definitely some likeage going on and he just acted bizarrely. The general advice was also to pseudo apologize to him via facebook…because apparently its more blasé if I do it via facebook. So I sent him a message saying I was just being funny and I didn’t realize he would get upset…unless he was only kidding (see there’s that opening) and asked him if we’re cool. He wrote me back this morning and said hell yea we were cool and that he was only kidding and then asked if he would see me tonight (which he will)

So we’ll see what’s up with that