So things are going relatively well with Mike...actually I can't complain...at all...which is new...he pays attention to me, he is genuinely interested in things I say, we have a good time together....so why am I sitting here mopey? I could say it was this gloomy rainy day but its my own insecurities....I really like Mike and that scares the crap out of me...it would be easier if he didn't really like me or if he treated me like crap, at least I would know what to expect...but with someone who genuinely cares...what do I do with that? Get comfortable? What if he decides tomorrow that this is all a mistake and pulls away and I'm left staring out into the world? What if I have completely read this all wrong and he has no interest in me at all and again I'm left? Maybe I have abandonment issues...I'm assuming...or maybe I'm just not used to relationships that might work out...this mopey feeling all started when he didn't answer the phone or call me back right away...which is silly, sometimes he has school...or maybe he's doing work...or he had a crappy day at school and doesn't want to talk....I mean right?? So why am I sooo crazy?
I guess there are things that are worse than a broken heart right?
Someone should explain that to my mind...
Aw, doll! I hope you start feeling better about this all but as someone who rarely answers the phone, sometimes it's just not a phone day. Keep updating! xx
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